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Mister Golden Sun,
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Please shine down on...
Please shine down on me!
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WESTWOOD SECONDARY
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WESTWOOD CHORUS
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Monday, October 30, 2006

"All About You"
[Danny:]It's all about you
([Tom:] It's about you)
It's all about you, baby
([Tom:] It's all about you)
It's all about you
([Tom:] It's about you)It's all about you
[Tom:]Yesterday, you asked me something I thought you knew.So I told you with a smile 'It's all about you'Then you whispered in my ear and you told me too,Say 'If you make my life worthwhile, it's all about you'
[Danny:]And I would answer all you're wishes, if you asked me to.But if you deny me one of your kisses, don't know what I'd do.So hold me close and say three words, like you used to do.Dancing on the kitchen tiles, it's all about you.Yeah...
[Solo]
[Danny & Tom:]And I would answer all you're wishes, if you asked me to.But if you deny me one of your kisses, don't know what I'd do.So hold me close and say three words, like you used to do.Dancing on the kitchen tiles,Yes you make my life worthwhile,So I told you with a smile...It's all about you.
[Danny:]It's all about you
([Tom:] It's about you)
It's all about you, baby
([Tom:] It's all about you)
It's all about you
([Tom:] It's about you)
It's all about you

Went to school.
Study. Mr TBC tempted us to combined science. Its definitely better i guess, but some people tried but failed to be appealled to combined sciences. What he said was really convincing! What do you want? A challenge in handling a tough subject? Or an A to work towards to? Yes, both are tough. Went to get long john's silver after school. And then went home.
I've got a HUGE, UGLY pimple. urghhhhhhhhhh
my post are getting shorter and shorter.
Halloween is a cool festive season.
Is it a festive season rather??
Nevermind, i'm going to spend my only 2 credits in habbo and buy those cute ducklings with bones-.-

duck1 duck2 duck3

WHICH ONE?

feel the SUNSHINE;
1:51 AM
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Sunday, October 29, 2006

Past few days, i've been rewatching princess hours cse i fast forward alot the other time. Its like, soo nice. The characters are like perrrrrffffeeecccttt. :) They are like the youngest and nicest characters to me.
However, its pretty draggy and i realised that those empress dowager talk very slowly. ANYONE GOT THAT SONG? THAT VERY NICE SONG?
But its a really sweet show. Overall rating, 5 stars. Its really touching!!! When i get my money this year, i'm going to buy more dramas! I really regretted buying meteor garden II. Michelle Saram always act the bad woman, and she's from singapore!! I'm blogging crap.
Its the first time i'm blogging sooo little. I need to start studying again!! But i just cannot get this engine working. I eat, sleep, watch. Urgh. LET'S START STUDYING TOMORROW EVERYBODY.
I LOST MY SPECTACLES AGAIN. ITS LIKE, OHH NOO. :(
I'm really not fated with having spectacles.

My brother just cut his hair, no more mushroom head!!! Now,its lohan head.
But i still find it rather adorable. Lastly, i'm getting EVEN fatter. urgh. Any lose weight plans? Don't eat, does it help?

hmmm?

BYE>

feel the SUNSHINE;
6:24 AM
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Friday, October 27, 2006

I have to take care of my brother for the whole day so i cannot go out except morning. We actually wanted to help yk win a girl's heart but in the end the stuffs we did are ugly so we decided to officially give it to her next time. The 3 other tans came to my place to make cookies and it was fun! I love baking, i think i want to go to rasyidah's house on monday to bake again! Hmm, met sophie in the morning to pay her money and then i went back home. She grabbed me and walked away quickly like running away from someone, i thought someone's stalking her. It was her grandpa, he wanted to commit suicide because her grandma went out when he disallows. -.- ,lol. On the way back, i witnessed an accident, darn shocking. A couple were riding their motorbike in a fast speed and they bang onto a little boy. AND I SERIOUSLY meant LITTLE! Even smaller size than my little brother. Its like freaking scary, the whole motorbike and the two riders squashed him after the knock. He was crying for help at that time. I seriously wanted to help him but i could just stare and i'm about to cry! I walked forward a little, the little boy was crying and shouting in pain. His slippers flew to don't know where. The woman picked up for him, and tell him to wear it himself. I'm like thinking, "EXCUSE ME, HE'S CRYING AND YOU'RE NOT DOING ANYTHING?! NOT EVEN HELPING HIM TO WEAR HIS SLIPPERS?!" There was blood and he could just sit there. My mind tell me to go forward but that freaking DRIVER scolded the little boy for anyhow crossing the road. I'm like "WALAO, I HATE YOU MAT REP, YOU DON'T KNOW HOW TO RIDE A MOTORBIKE JUST GET OFF IT, I SAW THE WHOLE THING, THAT LITTLE BOY JUST MADE THE FIRT STEP OUT OF THE ROAD. " Luckily a man came forward and asked what happened, they drove off. People started to crowd, i went off. I just hate people like that! Sorry but just quite pissed. Yah, went to buy ingredients after that and we started baking. It looks really horrendous but at least it taste good and its hundred percent edible. Yah, baked whole day. They wouldn't want to see a cookie for months, eat until too scared. Lunch was the cookies as well. lol. It was quite fun, haha, and they are fun enough to entertain my brother too.:)

its a face.

more and more.

yeah, black face.

second attempt? lol

looks ABIT better.

THESE ARE REAL BLACK ONES, im reserving them for my mom.

*right eye still twitching. Bad, real bad.

goodBYE.

feel the SUNSHINE;
4:38 AM
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Thursday, October 26, 2006

I got this instinct that alot of people will start committing suicide after the man jumped down the MRT track and killed himsself. I just saw this discussion on the television program discussing this issue. He live a very pathetic life, very poor and so on. Yah, so he cannot take it anymore and he jumped and died.(at chinese garden somemore) This kind soul got his funeral ready for free and so on.. the family received donations up to 50 thousand dollars! My mom say that she can never earn so much in her entire life. I suppose people will start jumping, and expect singaporeans to donate to the rest of their family for them to live for their rest of their lives. If im dumb, i'll do that too.

feel the SUNSHINE;
5:46 AM
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I guess i have to trust my right eye. It depicts the results and its definitely a bad one. I knew things would go wrong. My freaking right eye kept twitching. Hannah saw it and its quite funny, haha. Yah, got my results but i couldn't get top 5%, 500 dollars flew away. See, first intuition. Mom talked to Mdm Li and i just cannot understand what she said!Tsk,Mr poh would be better!, second intuition. Reached school at 6.58 but there wasn't anyone. So i waited for them to write those stuffs for clement. After everything, we all went to approach mrs chow with some hopes. We went to knock on her window and we got scolding for that,third intuition. Then, i asked "i dont know her name" to pass the papers to her. And we sat outside and waited for Mrs chow for like an hour i guess? The result of appealling was bad. Sigh, our efforts wasn't worthwhile enough for her to say a yes,fourth intuition. I've listened to Mr neo and asked fernanders for stead and he rejected me! Fifth intuition, although it was JUST KIDDING. It was bad day indeed.
Tears and sadness, to say a goodbye is not easy, to adapt to the new changes is even harder. She makes me think that there are no second chance this sort of theory in this world. The ribbon project is just crap. Life is about prejudice! I just don't understand why people that deserve promotion cannot get promoted and those that shouldnt, always get their way. I thought character comes first? The one who knows one's character most are the friends and not teachers. The school is so practical, they only see results and nothing else. Why does she even bother to talk about character building when it doesnt even help. I would miss clement ALOT. I shall not continue, or i'll start crying again. So sad.
Relationships makes one's mind become complex, not only that, its bewilders you and makes you real down majority of the times. Its harmful, so don't fall into such traps. Its goes to you, you and myself. Let's avoid it. Okay, maybe only I think this way.:)

goodbye.

feel the SUNSHINE;
3:27 AM
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Wednesday, October 25, 2006

I thought i've made the right decision in sitting in front today, but im wrong.(again)
But i like sitting in front, although we just keep on talking until mr and and mrs chow always stare at us.
OKAY I CAN FINALLY USE SOME COLOURS. SO COOL. I'M GONNA TRY IT!
is that purple? OH YES.
COOL.
Okay.
After the loooong assembly, there was a sl meeting. Mr koh is leaving the school? I thought it was only SL. Argh, all the GREAT teachers are leaving. LEAVING. I'm using red, but its not good luck. Its bad luck! MR POH, MR LEE,MS CHIA,MR KOH,MS TAN. AHHHH.. Am i like down on luck or something, sec 1 form teacher left us, sec 2 and 3 form teachers are ALSO leaving us. WHY, I've got news that MR TAN WILL ALSO BE LEAVING. I WILL SERIOUSLY CRY MAN. LIKE LINA SAID, DOES THE SCHOOL FREAKINGLY HATE US? WHY DO THEY TAKE SUPERB TEACHERS AWAY. Okay, nothing to do with the school i know. BUT, WON'T THEY SPARE A THOUGHT FOR US? Its our Os next year, and they're dumping all this shit for us to handle alone. Darn,

I suddenly got this feeling i would miss this class. Although at the beginning, we simply don't bond well. Mr poh tried all ways to bond us, and now? HES LEAVING US ALONE. After sec 3 adventure camp, i realised the uniqueness of my class and i love it, truely. Its like my fourth time blogging about bidding goodbye. And i hate farewell. We will come together and help clement, we all want him to be with us in 4h 2007. We want, we must.
Operation cleanup was quite fun, scrubbing the "white" wall outside with hannah and rachel was fun. Haha, and its the first time i saw mr poh pulling someone's ear. Tomorrow would be the official last day and our operation will begin. I hope it would be successful. I PRAY*

After school, which was a super short day, Zawani,hannah,arif,shuhui,shawn,sheikh and i went to have lunch and then meet mr koh to plan the food for stjohn'sisland. Took a super looong time. And he's still not satisfied la, but he released us cse we're really tired.
Mr Neo talked to me today, asked me a couple of stuff. And he advised me to get boyfriends that are mature, sensible,smart and hardworking. I kind of agree too. But the choices he've given me fernanders,bryan and nicholas, top 3 in position people. Yah, although he said some things that discouaraged me a little, i still respect him.
Hmmm.. yesterday was a super great day. I shall not elaborate.:D
I'm going to hit more of those gonging gong! Although my wrist hurts now. Went to East Coast at night, Mom and Dad wanted duo time together. I promised uncle to go fishing with him on sat midnight because i've been busy with school and have not fished in months! I remembered the first time when i fish, although it was a super small fish, i was happy like hell. Yup, FISHING:) Very hard to find people that likes it cse it is boring and that's a fact, who would wait that for even hours for a little jerk in the rod? haha
I love my class! I'm happy in Westwood because i've made great friends, great classmates. From sec 1, one harmony, sec 2, two honour, sec 3 , 3Hzusammen, i will not regret my times in it. :D Yes, they are memories, but they've carved their presence in our mind,remembering both the good and bad moments of it.
I helped Irene be assured of her decision of the subjects she's taking just now. I hope she work towards her capabilities cse i know shes really good!! I hope she can get her A1's, i believe in her :D

BYE.

IF MY RIGHT EYE TWITCH, IT MEANS???

feel the SUNSHINE;
4:41 AM
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Monday, October 23, 2006

MY NEW IDOL. NATALIE, BUT totally nothing to do with her body. Its her SONG.
Today, i believe was the loooongest talk by mrs chow ever. She kept repeating about integrity, care, concern and compassion, adaptibility and resilience, creativity and innovation, continual learning. THRICE. SHE REPEATED THRICE. Did she even know how warm is it at the back of the hall?? She talked alot, and i mean alooot. I'm already pissed from doing duty at the backgate. I'm soo don't feel belonged there. Mr goh like weiyang and ONLY praise him, yalah..i know i'm a bad SC but at least i produced a junior that got the most votes! (ok,its got nothing to do with me) But, i really dislike doing duty with HIM AROUND. He just keep on telling us to press the traffic light. Seriously, does it make a difference?? DAVID also never do duty, he never get complained. UMH.
And she disgraced him just like that in front of the whole school. Its not fair to him as well, calling him a bully in front of everyone?! Its like what lina said, they just simply judge someone by how they think he is. His a nice person, all of us know that. I believe those people that are the so called "VICTIMS" definitely deserve it. Its like, you've brought it upon yourself. Why in the whole school population of 2000 people, they pick on YOU? The problem definitely lies with you. Why can they be great friends with any single person but not you, victim? Ask yourself. And the victims all come from the same place and cliche. Tsk. I seriously will not stand on victims side although they are called victims who are suppose to be innocent. And, she keep thinking that scarf is so beautiful? It looks quite dirty and ugly, which is quite funny.
Returned to class, finally there was good news. Amath test was postponed. But bad news too. Sigh, we really want to help him. We want him to join us in 4H 2oo7. I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY he didn't want to help you? WHY? You've better learning attitude compared to her. Why is lady luck ALWAYS with her. Hmmm, fine. Actually, its just a waste of time attending school today. Mr lee is leaving..he was clearing his stuff and he gave us that doraemon lantern.. We would miss him, definitely. Mr poh is leaving too. Great teachers always leave teaching early. Urgh. He talked to the group of us today, i thought it was good news, but of cse its not. haha.
Zawani,hannah,rebecca,rachel and i chatted today. I cannot deny the fact that i've got no more new clothes to wear!!! Horror. We have to go shopping. I seriously still cannot find the kind of clothes and style i'm into. I dare not wear those that i dare not wear. Hmmm.. I like it when we start talking, it'll be anything under the burning sun:D
I've planned. I WANT A GUITAR and of cse learn it after my Os next year. I WANT A BIKE after Os too. I want Donald Trump as my papa. HE'VE GOT HIS OWN PLANE :O.
Sometimes i just feel like, lord, just let me be rich for a day. But when that day comes, i will not know how to spend those *bling bling* money. Do rich people always get their way? NoNo! but sometimes, to a certain extend, yes uh?
BYE. Lina,i've blogged, you?

feel the SUNSHINE;
5:02 AM
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Saturday, October 21, 2006

Looking back, i cannot believe what i did the entire day! Although i have to face it.
Darn, i wake,eat,watch tv,sleep,wake,eat,sleep,eat. ARHHH. If i continue this way i will turn into a pig!! But the thing is,i cannot find myself anything to doooo. Whenever i've got nothing to do, i will eat. This CANNOT go on. Yes, i will study later, there's still Amath test on monday! But while studying, i think i must also eat. Sigh, i need some exercises no matter how much i hate it.
Argh, i cannot even walk to grandma's place later because mom had brought food home. Maybe i shall go running later. Or cycling. Or run some stairs. Or situps. Or use that stupid machine. Or do houseworks. Or walk a few rounds around gekpoh. Something..iiii nnneeeeeeeeeeeeddddddd tttttooooo dddddooooo sssoooommmmeeeetttthhhiiinnnngggg rrriiiggghhhttt!!!
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this takes effort to do as well..........

feel the SUNSHINE;
3:26 AM
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Friday, October 20, 2006

NEVER and i mean NEVER compare me with her.
I hate it, really.
People judge book by its cover, just like people judging someone by her appearance.
She doesn't even belong there, its bloody unfair.
I know i am nothing comparable to her on the outside. But it doesn't mean that i'm worse than her on the inside!
YOU did not get the FACTS RIGHT before making your dumb conclusion. It happened in the first year, second year and today determines the third year. So unfair! I don't want to bring things up until YOU said those STUFF. And i already proved that anyone can focus and do better without joining IT! ONE SUBJECT cannot determine everything!
I WILL PROVE YOU WRONG IN A YEAR TO COME.

feel the SUNSHINE;
6:59 AM
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Thursday, October 19, 2006

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DEAR ZAWANI, COOL OR NOT? ITS MORE THAN YOUR FINGERS CAN COUNT. I PROMISED YOU. >,- MUAHAHA

Went back earlier today although it was thursday:D
Mom scolded me for going home early, its like URGH!
Rebecca,rachel and zawani came to my place. I did not serve guests well though. They're using the com while im sleeping, and i don't even know when they left! Sorry guys!
Yah, then met jianyang they all at around 6 and watched deathnote. I guessed they purposely cut the movie halfway! So that people would want to continue and finish the story in the next movie. A strategy indeed. It has successfully tempted me to look forward watching deathnoteII, III and so on..
Quite a good show because the characters are handsome, and pretty! Yah, popcorn and $2.80 ice lemon tea already filled my stomach. Time to sleep again! (darn,why do i keep on wanting to sleep?)

bye. 48 hours with syafiq! LOL

feel the SUNSHINE;
7:17 AM
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Wednesday, October 18, 2006

School was as usual, just that there was this police-talk today. This speaker was a fierce man. Super boring and all. I was quite irritated because its really stuffy at the back of the hall. Zawani and i were only interested in the goodie bag and we told sheikh the answers for the questions so that he could get the goodie bag for us. But he didn't went up. After everything, there was SL meeting for st john island trip in the november holidays. Hmm, arif,shuhui,hannah,zawani,sheikh and i are in the food com, they've planned the food marvelously! But cooking it would be tough, haha. Yep, witnessed a scene and i really think its not bullying. Its like serve those young ones right, why must they always do things to piss people off?
My hamster died today on the 18th of October. I did not take good care of it properly, so its really my fault.
Argh, im quite lazy to type. I was praying for the P.S.I to be high yesterday so that rev-up cannot take place. But in the end, we still had to do 5BX at the quadrangle. My back really hurts. My hands hurts as well. Talking about hands, yes, it hurts and i didn't really want to clap during the prize presentation today. Its super irritating when you are forced to clap. When teachers start screaming at you to tell u to clap. Yes, you clap, but its isn't out of willingness, the one on stage wouldnt be happy as well. Its sincerity not image!
Right, received my results. Went to choir. And proceed to my normal routine, went for a bubbletea drink with hannah(like always:D) then went home and slept.
Its the anniversary of syafiq and i for 30 hours:D LOL
i LOVE syafiq . LOL

bye.
ANSWER ME ANYONE,
why spend $7 cutting a patch of grass on your head when all you want is botak. Or simply, all you have on the top of your head is as much as your fingers plus toes can count. $7 for a hairstyle when its not even a style and you need a SKILLFUL barber.

feel the SUNSHINE;
6:17 AM
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Saturday, October 14, 2006

It was a GOOD morning today:D
Definitely was, nobody to wake me up on purpose like every saturday. Oppositely, mom drew the curtains for me, so that the sunlight wouldn't affect my beautiful sleep. Weird huh. She always finds it fun to shake and slap on my thighs until i wake up early in the weekend mornings.
Rewatched charlie and the chocolate factory. I forget what i did when i watched it the previous time becuase i was still fascinated by the factory. Those chocolate waterfall. I want to swim in it!!Those oompa-loompas are super irritating to me. Urgh, they look very ugly and scary and freakingly comes out and perform after every kid got kicked out. Darn, imagine those freaky things DO exist, do they?! AND MY BROTHER KEPT REPEATING THAT SHOW AGAIN AND AGAIN. GETTING ON MY NERVES FOR REAL:)
Had lunch and i helped to straighten her hair. Sis went out, and i went out too. I went to meet ganmin and dominic around 3pm and caught Rob-B-Hood. I didn't want to go at first, partly because i'm almost penniless. In the end, i recalled that Louis Khoo was acting, and HAHA, i got excited. Hmmm, its really funny and touching, no doubt i did cry. I finished the icelemontea all by myself!! And, that baby in the show is SUPER ADORABLE. I want to find out his name so that i can search for how he look like 10 years later:D. Right, then went to see chien yee's mom. Just sat awhile and i left. Mayb god bless her and the entire family. Realised that i still got quite some time to spare so i walked home. Umm, bought bubbletea(again). Mom scolded me, "everyday bubbletea bubbletea, later you become one.."-.-
Yah, and i finally understand why i was coughing away,having nose irritation and headache. Its all the haze fault! i thought i wouldn't be affected by it. Jianyang's reminder. PSI: 110, i was like..what's that? Now that i know, thanks alot. lol
I spent alot of money and i'm really sad. Definitely unlike those rich people who spends money as much as talking.
Zawani zawani, i'm so happy that you did not forget me. YOU made me know whats the meaning of friends. Something i am really looking for. Now that i've found it, its all grateful to you, dear one:) As i said, you reflect and show the spot light on those admiring you(me), and show them what's real happiness. So, i hope you will always be happy and i will always and hopefully be around when you need help:D
And, i hope you like that testimonial, haha, i thought of it in my dreams and that angel in my dreams said that i must tell you those:D And for that song, i shall change it to, I AM MISSING YOU:) Sing to me, i look forward to it:D LOVE YOU FOREVER DEAR ONE.:D

BYE:)
(and to kartik, i'm super glad to have you as my angel, someone i unburden thoughts to :))

MAOMAOS are currently having some crazy news update, lol. I can feel it coming again. :)))))

Weimar Government was a baaaabaaaa, and so am i.

feel the SUNSHINE;
5:49 AM
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Friday, October 13, 2006

Now now..
when it happen?
what to do?
which to choose?
how to listen?
who said that?
where is it?

Friday the 13th, and im indeed unlucky the first thing in the morning. I rushed to school for SC meeting, i forget totally until my sis reminded me. I was so tired when i pressed the lift button and waited with my eyes closed, and walked in the lift with my eyes closed as well. And of cse, fringy hair. I totally forget that mdm fauziah lives on top of me. And she saw the messy me. I wanted to greet her but i was kind of scared too, so i pretended that im sleeping and walking at the same time. Gratefully she assumed that im sleepwalking. And hopefully she wouldn't recognise me.
Farewell assembly took 3 hours. The atmosphere wasn't really low enough..lol, i thought alot of them would cry, but don't seem to be.lol, maybe there was, but i didn't managed to see. BECAUSE I DO NOT HAVE MY SPECS. I SAT THROUGH THE WHOLE 3 HOURS WITH SOME BLUR VISION and its TOTALLY sucky. MOM DO NOT WANT TO GET ME NEW SPECS BECAUSE SHE SAID THAT I ALWAYS BROKE MINE. WHAT TO DOOOOOO.
By the way, all the best to the sec fours and those seniors whom i know:D
And, ganmin, sing me that song la(feiyuqing and jay chou one) SING SING SING! i forget the tune again!:D
Change of juniors today. I would miss hilary and Austin:D Although they always pester me to do duty. Now, i've got shihong and rose. And i hope that little boy can free me and let me fly:( Also, my duty changed as well. No more toilets, now backgate! But its with that HANDSOME, urgh. Greeting goodmornings is fun:D
Hmmm, walked back home and as usual, bought bubbletea again:D
Met sophie in the late afternoon then met kartik,sharik and brandon. I've finally got my lunch after having gastric pains since morning. I recalled that i've got motion sickness, argh. Still giddy until now. Perhaps i squashed sophie's legs while sleeping on her. pOOL is cOOL, that's right, only when you get the hang of it.

Yes, i really miss you too my dear one. So much, so much,zawani :)

AHBIAN DOWN STAGE
AHBIAN DOWN STAGE
AHBIAN DOWN STAGE
AHBIAN DOWN STAGE
AHBIAN DOWN STAGE
AHBIAN DOWN STAGE
AHBIAN DOWN STAGE
AHBIAN DOWN STAGE
(direct translation)

I'm dozing off..
bye

feel the SUNSHINE;
6:50 AM
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Thursday, October 12, 2006

Duck it,kick it,doubt it,curse it,bite it,hammer it,tear it,peel it,chop it,punch it and on and on..that express how i feel currently, no elaboration. Urgh.
Okay, that is off, because its "i'm the one".
Good is good, evil is evil. Truth is truth, lie is lie.
Are you really good or evil, or you telling the truth or lie, only you know it yourself.
Fair is unfair, unfair is fair, this is life!!
People who cared never ever get what they earned, people who never cared always get more. Who don't agree?
The environment is changing, or you yourself simply is?
The answer is definitely you, when you blame the whole world for climate change, did you ask if you are the evolving one.
(it all applies to myself)
Why is there so many things pissing me off at the same time. David, please grow up. Why isn't your hair as thick as your skin? I just meant that you're thickskin.You are the definition of suaveness, yah. And i'm really really attracted to you, yah. You presumed that because you really think that you're handsome, yah. As an SC, you must be honest? Haa,i call that lying.
Emath brings me sorrow only, i won't want to see that paper..arhh..
I went abit crazy over dramas recently, i missed alot of shows during the before exams period. I took 3 days and finished the entire series of Green forest,my home. I cried and cried. And i went to Daphne's house to watch Princess hours, but that show was pretty draggy, so we fast forward alot. Argh, i want to watch somemore, anymore to introduce anyone? Those that brings sadness and humour, anime ALSO applicable. I just want to cry and laugh all out, it gives me sensation :X
Right, and after drinking bubbletea for lunch everyday, i strongly advise humans not to keep trying flavours or they'll regret like me. I've learnt, and i'll stick to oreo iceblend without pearls :D But mom advised me not to skip meals anymore, i'm always thinking, why can everyone skip meals and gets no problem while me being so fat, gets such a problem. She don't allow me to drink bubbletea..

I'm so scared, would you all divert those arrows to me one day?
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feel the SUNSHINE;
3:23 AM
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Monday, October 09, 2006

End of year is equivelant to disappointments after disappointments.
What's wrong with me? My hopes,its all wrecked up,
Number 1: My scholarship flew away, $500 dollars
Number 2: I practically cannot finish almost every paper
Number 3: I'm not working as hard as i used to be!!
Number 4: I've let so many people down, most importantly, myself.
For this time, it would be real..
Unlike the past, i would say i did super badly, but the results would still be pleasant.. THIS time, i will not expect that. Lady luck has left me all alone..
After Emath paper 2 today, i would ask myself why the hell i cannot finish it and getting my results back would be nightmare. After chemistry paper today, its like, "mr patrick tan, i want to kill you!!" Everyone was like, "its so easy, so easy until i dont know how to do all.."
Through this exam, i've learnt that i cannot be complacent, i must never be, or i'll regret. I hope you learn this too. I feel so low when i discuss this with you..i'm always inferior to you.. I hope everything would turn out opposite from what you thought, then you'll learn. I really hope to challenge Sharik for the top 5 positions and get my treat, but i'm certain, its no longer possible.

I continued my day after exams by going home to "pongpong" which means bath in daphne's language. Then, i went to buy groceries for mom. I took the whole list of what-to-buy and searched for it like some gundoos. I realised what is "mouth" of a human used for, not only to talk, its to ASK. So, i pestered this uncle and got him to show me the location of every item. Thanks, "MOUTH". Huimin called me and Daphne to buy mushrooms and mincemeat. We're cooking a "big" feast at her place. Walked a long distance before reaching her house, its so deep in the terrace blocks. We cooked spaghetti together. Eating own cooked food made my day happier, haha. Then we studied history while listening to music. She can open a cafe or candy shop, there's all the food you want to find there :D. I got her to play all the duet love songs, i just love DUET, the tune is always so-perfect. I was having a bad headache, and i believed fever, so we left after a few hours. Went home and sunked into my bed andslept for and hour or so. Actually meeting Daphne at 8 for history, but i guess she overslept too, haha. So, i'll do some self studies later, i already screwed up my social studies, i cannot let history "die", if not my combined humanities is also going to "die".
Imagine who will be the oral examiner tomorrow, you will really die, its someone who cannot even speak english properly :(
ALL THE BEST EVERYONE!
SO DOWN..
NOT UP..

feel the SUNSHINE;
5:32 AM
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Sunday, October 08, 2006

I thought my day would be so ruined.
Firstly, DAD insisted on bringing us around to makan some delicacies. I didn't enjoy although it was the term "DELICACY". I hate doing that because he won't stop eating, we would travel from places to places eating, imagine how much calories and fats i would take in! Ha, but he was chased out of the car for smoking and i was grinning happily. Of cse, if his out of the car, the car cannot move-.-
So we plead him back.
So, my whole morning to afternoon was travelling. Not only eating, we went to condos after condos to see his customers' houses. Boring and simply wasting time. So in the end, i couldn't go community centre with Daphne.
I'm so sorry Royston, i couldn't send you the graph paper,i feel so guilty:X
And, i love my friends, i would do all means and cherish them, treasure them:D
Daphne really scares me alot with her chemistry knowledge, and she cannot stop blabbering the facts she remembered. Argh, so inferior!
SULPHATE
CARBONATE
NITRATE
HYDROGEN
HYDROGEN OXIDE
SODIUM NITRATE
METHANE
so many more..
I finally understand that be it writing a song or a poem, the inspiration usually comes when you're either too happy or sad. Then, you make good songs. I wanted to go to my cousin house to strum some guitar strings just now(although i don't know, just anyhow), but i was rushing to daphne's place after dinner. We studied together for an hour plus and it really got my head cracking. Doing emath now, i know last minute work don't usually help but i'll try my best, i'll sleep by 12 today, i promise:)

feel the SUNSHINE;
7:18 AM
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Saturday, October 07, 2006

Yeh, began my day with tuition!
didn't really did alot of stuffs but did clarify some doubts
AND i realised i've made STUPID mistakes in my EMATH PAPER 1.
Sigh..
Left around 1+ and went home to continue with chemistry, made notes. haha! It have been so long since i made proper neat notes. Daphne called me and we exchanged notes. We spent some time at the shop figuring out what we should photostat. I just kept on choosing and picking and i realised i chosed too much. Luckily it didn't cost me too much although it was a thick stack. Daphne got alot of guide book, its great to have her as a neighbour, lol.
And mom wanted me to buy candles for my little brother to play. It selling for 3 for $1 and she wanted me to buy $5, i carried it home like an idiot. Perhaps, i always am one. lol
We're going to explore and find out why so many people like studying in the community centre rooms tomorrow. Haha.
I wanted to find songs of Emma Roberts after watching "aquamarine". A pretty nice movie. In the end, i searched into her episodes of tv series she acted. "Unfabulous", i realised its quite a nice tv show which i didn manage to catch it. But i managed to finish watching it, heh! quite nice, i just love high school teenage dramas, don't know why.
Three more days, exams would be over..
I remembered after every examination, i would go to the park at chua chu kang(why there?) i don't know. haha, but i like that place. We release stress there:D
Okay, Tsk tsk, just got some consultation, dont know if its true. Alamak, what to do? Please come back to me, pretty please..

Winnie the Pooh

Deep in the hundred acrewood
where Christopher Robin plays
You'll find the enchanted neighborhood
of Christopher's childhood days
A donkey named Eeyore is his friend
and Kanga and little Roo
There's Rabbit and Piglet and there's Owl,
but most of all Winnie the Pooh

Winnie the Pooh
Winnie the Pooh
Tubby little cubby all stuffed with fluff
He's Winnie the Pooh
Winnie the Pooh
Willy nilly silly old bear

Winnie The Pooh
Winnie The Pooh
Tubby little cubby all stuffed with fluff
He's Winnie the Pooh
Winnie The Pooh
Willy nilly silly old bear

WHAT A CUTE SONG, AS CUTE AS POOH
http://www.lair2000.net/Pooh_Lyrics/Songs/Winnie_the_Pooh.html

Umm, CIAO:)

feel the SUNSHINE;
8:27 AM
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Friday, October 06, 2006

aww man..i wanted to concentrate on my history revision but the sound of those irritating electronic lanterns is really irritating, why can't they change into sound more interesting tune lke a handphone?! Why must the song keep repeating itself and is always the same..
Although i know i would be very disappointed this end of year, i'm also glad i learnt alot of things to handle exams pressure. I've got alot of advices, i would get them in my brains one by one. I know looking at those results in a few days time will get me into solemn mood, but..i also know there's nothing i can do, i could just blame myself in not putting enough hardwork. I'm hope there's an angel watching over me:D
I suddenly remembered about the principal saying about vomitting and all. Mr lee kept asking if i had these symtoms, and he came up with some crap theories. Funny teacher, i would miss him aloot..:)
Tomorrow, tuition, hope it would help me:D

feel the SUNSHINE;
8:02 AM
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Seriously, there's something seriously wrong about these stupid rules.
I mean like, why do people judge its book by its cover?
It seriously doesn't mean that he is super innocent when you look at him and when you know who he really is, seriously.
And it seriously doesn't mean that throwing paper balls is a sin or rather, bullying.
Well, he was wrong making racist remarks and the rest were only trying to defend their pride too. Just because it was 6 and 1.
Rules are stupid, regulations are dumb..
That's why they always come together, "rules and regulations".

Why do i lose friends after friends?
I was looking out of my window just now, the sky was dark, yet blinking light from the ground could be seen. It was those sweet candles. I used to play with it every this time of the year, with a pal. Well, as time passed, we went into different schools and had different kind of friends. I changed, she changed. I really hope to go back to those times when we always played together when we were younger.
she left, unknowingly,
bringing her smile away
burnt those promises into ashes too..
Argh, why must things always change as we grow older!
WHY..
and why is there such a indirect rule in the society that we would be known childish doing things that was allowed when are younger.
Tsk, LIFE.

(i admire people who draws and sings well, they are soo my idols)

feel the SUNSHINE;
5:17 AM
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Wednesday, October 04, 2006

you made me tear.
wish to hate you but i couldn't.

"your love is much more important than my life itself" he said while crying, but not touching at all! He's pervertic. The other man is better:D

Social studies paper was wrecked up.
Compositions really suck.
Physics is close to hopeless.
So i suck, im wrecked up and im hopeless.

terrible life, but we've got more to face.
Win this war, we must.
All the best for the rest of the papers everyone.:)

feel the SUNSHINE;
7:02 AM
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Sunday, October 01, 2006

OH MY GOD. CHEERLEADERS, YOU GUYS ROCK!!!
Although i was only there for the first 2 episodes, i know you all are super happy now!! All the hardwork and shoutings sure work! I am so happy for you guys! :)
As for XIAOJINGLING, you all are still the best to me, i was laughing throughout the performance, great job!! In our hearts, you all are still the winner yeh!

i just cant seem to get all these facts in my brain..

feel the SUNSHINE;
6:27 AM
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